20 Tomorrow!

Just posting (yes I know it hasn't been a month!) to say holy shit, this is my last day as a teenager. When I look at it like that, it seems pretty darn scary, I mean I've been a teenager since 1999. It just seems an eternity, thats all, and I feel like tomorrow I'm expected to be this different person who can get away with less. Of course, its probably all bullshit and stuff but I just pictured myself as a 20 year old when I was younger as this confident, wise person who was great in many ways.
I suppose everything is gradual... :) Greatness one day! When I'm 30. Yeah then everything will be good. *hehe*
Ah my mind is certainly in a clearer state today. Having said that, every time I get a new message from her, my feelings change. But I'm pretty sure I've been wrong about how much she likes me, which makes things a lot simpler for me, as I can try to move on and forget her. Well, relax a bit anyways.
Don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. I don't really like fuss and am not a great organiser of anything, so I'll probably just invite people to the Brockwell tomorrow (how thrilling!) and then maybe the village. Should still be fun and a chance to indulge in a bevvy or two perhaps. But yes, of course I'm at work so everything in moderation.
Ok my work here is done...